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The one thing that is changing my life…literally.

“For the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it” (Heb. 12:11).

I remember sitting in a classroom at Lipscomb University in the Fall of 2006 and in walked this tall professor whom I had never met and the emotion I felt at the time I remember now with crystal clear distinction: terror. Not because of the professor (turned out to be one of my favorites) but the class I was taking seemed almost impossible for me to tackle. It was Biblical Hebrew. That’s right. Not only did I agree to take this class but I also decided to pay for it (paying…present tense first person singular) with what little money I had. So there I was; married to a pregnant wife, a full-time youth minister and a father of a one year old.

One thought ran through my mind: “How the H-E-double hockey sticks (cute for a youth minister) am I going to get through this?” What got me though was the discipline to study flash cards, memorize and parse verb stems, understand what letters came before stems and after and why. In other words…hard freaking work. I made straight A’s in Hebrew 1, 2 and two semesters of readings because I studied my tail off (and because my professor was graceFULL) and showed up through the tough and the good times.

I can’t speak for everyone but when I look at my own failings in life it usually falls in one of two categories:  1) Something happened beyond the scope of my control and I lacked the skills to deal with what was in front of me or, more than likely, 2) I was undisciplined. Think about the many times you tried to lose weight, quit drinking, stop smoking or not go after that same type of guy. Why did you fail? If you are honest with yourself it happened because you lacked discipline.

I know the responses well because I have said them so many times.

“I get so busy…”

“I get so stressed…”

“The pain is too much…”

“I am not seeing any results…”

When I quit doing good things to improve my life (and I have quit many things) it was because I lacked the brass to push through the pain and discomfort of what it would take to get to the goal.

Jocko Willink, a former Navy Seal and current leadership guru wrote this about in his book  Extreme Ownership which he co-authored with Leif Babin:

“The test is not a complex one: when the alarm goes off, do you get up out of bed, or do you lie there in comfort and fall back to sleep? If you have the discipline to get out of bed, you win—you pass the test. If you are mentally weak for that moment and you let that weakness keep you in bed, you fail. Though it seems small, that weakness translates to more significant decisions. But if you exercise discipline, that too translates to more substantial elements of your life.”

Think about what this means to every facet of your existence. Take a relationship with God. When I was a minister people used to tell me how they couldn’t grow closer to God and they felt like he wasn’t there or didn’t care or whatever. When I asked, “How much time have you spent trying to meet with him?” The answer to that question just about every time was, “not much.”

Eric Greitens in his book Resilience said this: “We all need something to struggle against and to struggle for. The aim in life is not to avoid struggles, but to have the right ones; not to avoid worry, but to care about the right things; not to live without fear, but to confront worthy fears with force and passion” (p. 17).

I wish I would have learned this concept quicker in my life. My dad is quick to tell me I am a slow learner and I like to do things the hard way. Call it stubbornness but in the end, it’s sheer stupidity. The ancient writer of wisdom said this: “Whoever loves discipline loves knowledge, but he who hates reproof is stupid” (Prov. 12:1).

Your preacher might be nice and say “you’re not making wise decisions” but what he really means to tell you is that you are acting stupid.

What would our lives look like if we practiced discipline? What steps do you need to take right now to become more disciplined? Jocko said in his podcast somewhere that there is no secret to getting discipline as one simply needs to just do it. Over and over again.

Our finances…more stable

our marriages…less volatile

our parenting…more purposed

our work environment…less anxious

our faith…more stable.



Lord help us.

Tim Tebow, Virginity and Grace

I am sure by now you have heard of the news of Tim Tebow and Olivia Culpo breaking up because, reportedly, he will not have sex with her.[1] The New York Daily News reported:

“She had to break up with him because she just couldn’t handle it,” said our insider, “He still hits her up, but she just can’t deal with the sex thing. He’s pretty adamant about it, I guess.”

From that the onslaught of memes, gifs and backhanded comments have come at Tebow’s expense. I guess this should not surprise us, as when you have such a polarized view of sex it will only lend itself to an onslaught of criticism. This kind of report is only an indicator that our culture is such a sexually charged culture. Sex is in music, TV, video games, commercials, billboards, social media and every sort of outlet you can imagine.

Tim Tebow is weird and I like it and wish more people were like him but I want to emphasize something very clear:

Virginity or the loss of virginity does not make you any more or less a Christian…Jesus does. Click To Tweet

Massive campaigns (Purity Ring) and other mission efforts make virginity seem like the crème-de-la-crème of Christian virtues. If you have slipped or messed-up in this area then you are damaged goods. Jen Pollock Michel wrote a post a couple of years back called, “Virginity Isn’t Our Holy Grail” that speaks to what I am saying (long quote):

Implicit in what I’m reading about purity from Bessey, and a host of other women, such as Elizabeth Esther, Rachel Held Evans, and Carolyn Custis James, is a broad concern over how the church handles and presents God’s teachings on sexual sin. This topic matters a great deal, considering that nearly 80 percent of self-proclaimed Christians are having sex before they are married.

The church has been pushing purity standards for ages. Esther refers to the shame she carried with her as a virgin into her marriage because she’d kissed a couple of boys before her husband and because she had masturbated. Esther would argue that the church’s restrictions are becoming more rigorous, and by outlining its own capricious rules, the Church has inevitably constructed a “new and improved virginity.” But is there such a thing as hyper-purity, a sexual standard more rigorous than God’s? Referring back to Jesus’ words in the Sermon on the Mount, where he insists that lust is equivalent to adultery (Matt. 5:27-30), I’m not so sure.

God’s purity standard is effectively impossible to meet. We can, though, fall guilty of making God’s grace small by making sexual sin big, whenever the church insists that non-virgins are cast beyond the reach of grace. Sexual promiscuity is not the unforgiveable sin. Let’s not forget those featured in Jesus’ genealogy (Judah, the man who slept with his daughter-in-law, mistaking her for a prostitute; David, the king who murdered the husband of his mistress), nor those winning mention in the Hebrews 11 Hall of Faith (Rahab, the prostitute who sheltered the Israelite spies, and Samson, the man with a weakness for beautiful women).

The Bible, in weaving its long history of redemption, is not a storybook of heroes. Failure, even sexual mistakes, has not once tied God’s hands. He accomplishes what he wills through the worst of us. But unfortunately, virginity has arguably become a modern-day idol of the church. According to Tim Keller, idolatry is fundamentally making good things into ultimate things. Virginity, which is rightly good, has unfortunately become ultimate, idolized in some churches as, in Bessey’s words, become “a barometer of our righteousness and worth.” Virginity is not a moral merit badge. Whether or not we have had sex before marriage, we are all lawbreakers (James 2:10). None can feel superior ¾ not even the virgins among us.[2]

To be fair, Tebow is not advocating that he is some superhero because of his virginity but the onslaught of media coverage seems to think that virginity is the mark of a true Christian. The mark of a true Christian is the outward reflection of an inner realization that Jesus, through his grace, has ransomed that person from a life of darkness. He is like the publican who simply uttered: “Have mercy on me, a sinner” (Luke 18:13).

I will try my best to teach my children healthy sexuality but with that comes a teaching of hearty grace.

Once again my friends…all is grace.


[1] http://www.nydailynews.com/entertainment/gossip/confidential/tim-tebow-find-zone-article-1.2447008

[2] http://www.christianitytoday.com/women/2013/february/virginity-isnt-our-holy-grail.html?paging=off

The Graduation Speech

*Originally preached at the Main Street Church of Christ on May 15, 2011.

The Graduation Speech

By Robbie Mackenzie (May 15, 2011)

            I have done many things since I have been alive. I have been to South America and Africa. I have attended numerous World Series games. I hiked down the Grand Canyon and back up in one day. I have watched four beautiful kids come into this world. But there are many things in this world I have not experienced. I have never jumped out of an airplane. I have never, unfortunately, found gold on the other side of a rainbow. I have never been to the North Pole and I have never, ever participated in synchronized swimming. Something else I have never done is speak at a graduation. I have probably sat through some thirty graduations and even leaving one in the middle only to arrive at another in the middle. I have heard every quote imaginable like, “This is the first day of the rest of your life,” and “If it’s to be it’s up to me.” I have heard many people misquote enough Scripture for me to pull my hair out and by the looks of my hair I have heard a lot of misquoted Scripture. Nobody remembers a graduation speech because they are all the same. This is why I am offering you a different graduation speech but in the end it will be forgettable and pretty soon it will be—well—just another graduation speech.

If I were to graduate again (which may happen) I would want to hear this type of speech at my graduation. I would want to have someone tell me what really might happen as opposed to God’s plans to “prosper us and not to harm us” (Jer. 29:11; taken out of context of course J). Those who have battled drugs, alcohol, divorce, financial heartache and difficult circumstances usually are not the ones invited to speak at graduations. Why? People want to hear the wealthy, famous, successful and “problem-free” at graduations yet those people are in the minority. Most of us fit into the second category of simple, problem-full, but content with our lives. That’s boring and nobody wants to hear about it. So this is my attempt to put pen to paper and give flesh to words that I would say if it were the last words I would say to a graduate. The speech is more about what you really may experience but it is a little uncertain. So here we go.

First of all, you’re going to grow apart from your friends. There are certain people in your graduating class you will never ever see or talk to again. Even your BFFs, whom you swore, pinkie-promised, and vowed to stay in touch via text, phone, SKYPE, or even just a visit on weekends, will grow apart from you. It’s going to be awkward when you come home and go back to a high-school football game and see your old buddies. You will realize they have changed and so have you and it will be a cool feeling knowing you are the college kid. Pretty soon you will just feel old and then you will stop going back to high-school functions. The saddest part about going different ways is watching some of your friends who cannot accept the fact that they are no longer in high-school. They still talk like high-schoolers, hang out with high-schoolers, and their maturity level stays that way for years. If they could just grow up and move on life would be better but they can’t. That may be you by the way. What they don’t tell you after you graduate is that life happens and things get in the way and we just become too busy. You might even lose a friend tragically in a car accident, overdose, or a physical ailment like cancer or something else. It’s going to hurt and you will cry.

You’re going to realize that the boyfriend or girlfriend you thought you would spend the rest of your life with will not work out. Nor will the next three or four. You will realize that there are some seriously messed-up people out there who are looking for nothing more to score with you and that is going to hurt. Perhaps you’re on the other spectrum and you will just wait, and wait, and wait while everyone around you is getting a significant other without trying yet you pray, ask someone out and still nobody will date you. Then you’re going to go home and it’s going to sting every time someone asks you, “Are you seeing anybody yet?” and then the awkward look you get when you say, “No!” To make matters worse they will offer you a monologue about them having two kids by the time they were your age. That doesn’t help either. Life does not consist in a relationship but it sure beats being lonely sometimes.

You’re going to have to say goodbye to your parents. Whether you work at home or go off to college you will have to say goodbye to them somehow. You’re going to have to convince your parents that them moving in with you in your dorm room is actually a horrible idea. They are going to call you, once, twice maybe three times a day just to hear your voice. Some of you will want to run from your parents so bad and so fast that you are going to blaze a trail along the way but some of you are not going to want to leave your parents because you will be afraid. You will get homesick because you’re going to miss the family meals, nights at the park, and games of uno, vacation and long conversations on the way to school. The phone calls from mom will get really annoying but deep down inside her voice will be like water in the driest African desert.

You’re going to be broke. Growing up your mom and dad were like a free-flowing ATM but now that day is long gone and you actually might have to work which, by the way, you don’t have time for. You may get into credit card trouble thinking you can pay the balance sometime later if you just meet the minimum payment and it’s going to come back to bite you in a very personal way. Worst of all, you might actually get that date with that someone only to be so broke you have to spend your romantic night at the dining hall or McDonald’s because you can’t afford anything else. By the way, your mom is calling you and you probably should pick the phone up.

You’re going to change physically. It’s a strange thing that actually eating 8-10 Krystals used to be fun and proper nourishment but now all of that eating during freshman year has become a part of your backside that you, literally, carry with you wherever you go. The concept of “freshman 15” no longer is a myth as you’re just trying to avoid freshman forty as you huff and puff up the stairs to your room. On top of that, guys you might start to notice that you lose hair at this time and girls you might start getting wrinkles. Your chaotic schedule and stressful demands does not make your physical issues any better. You may also get the world’s worst case of Athlete’s Foot because apparently your roommate does not have the human dignity to wear shower shoes or at least cut his feet off. The sad part of this is that you’re going to realize quickly that the physical issues, from this point on, only get worse.

You’re going to struggle attending worship services because mom and dad are not there to wake you up. Wait—is that mom calling me again? You are going to wonder what’s the point of attending services. You’re going to look at the people in the church and say it is filled with hypocrites and, you may be right. You’re going to struggle immensely at fitting-in and you are going to wish you could come back and participate in youth group again but your jerk of a youth minister will not let you. You’re going to wrestle with what the church is versus what it was in Scripture (welcome to the club). You’re going to wonder why churches invest so much time, resources and money with programs like the youth, older members, missions, building funds and yet not much time, resources and money (if any) are invested in college students. For you, church is going to be difficult.

You’re going to do some things you’re going to regret. Some of them may be minor but some of them are going to be major. You’re going to wish you could take it all back but you won’t be able to. You’re going to remember what your parents said about the dangers and now you’re going to have to tell them what you just did. It’s going to break their heart. The saddest part of it all is that you’re too stubborn to learn your lesson and so you’re going to do it all over again. You’re going to sit there late at night looking up at the ceiling wondering what you are going to do with your life. You may want to end it all.

You’re going to struggle with God. Who is this divine being that was taught so heavily to you? God has not been helpful to you and by the looks at what’s happening in the world God really doesn’t seem to care anymore. You’re going to have people cast doubt on your faith with different beliefs, ideologies and philosophical inquiries which some seem possible to believe. You’re going to try to help your faith by doing what your parents, youth minister or preacher suggested. It’s going to be tough and in my experience, when the going gets tough sometimes…well…the tough gets tougher. There are going to be moments when all you can think about God is anger, frustration and confusion. Like David, you are going to say, “How long, O Lord? How long?” (Psalm 13).




You’re going to make new friends. The kind of friends who do not have strings attached to them. The kind of friends whom you will laugh with, cry with and the kind of friends who will be, like the Proverb writer said, “closer than a brother” (Prov. 18:24). The friends you make will be in your weddings, at the hospital when you have a baby and next to you when you lose someone you love. The kind of friend who will utterly depend on you and years down the road these friends will need you most when their own world is turned upside down. You’re going to go to baseball games with these friends, have cookouts, go on mission trips with them and you might even have the opportunity lead a few of those friends to Christ.

You’re going to meet someone…it may take years…and you know what…it may not happen. You’re going to look at that sweet lady who keeps asking you if you’re married yet because she had two children by your age and you’re going to smile and say, “that’s not what God wants me to do right now.” God will make it happen if it needs to happen and you’re going to be just fine with that. You just might have four kids before you are thirty though and people, by the way, will make fun of you and call you crazy and psycho but you will realize that you will be 47 by the time your last one graduates high-school which will be the age your buddy will be when his first one starts middle school. But it’s also ok if you wait that long. You follow what God wants you to do not someone else. It’s ok to be crazy so don’t change that for a second. In the words of the musician Tom Cochrane, “Life is a highway and I want to ride it all night long.” You’re going to be able to look at the person you will spend the rest of your life with and vow to be with them in sickness, and in health until death due you part. You’re going to get that same passion every time you go to someone else’s wedding and you’re going to wake up each day feeling unworthy to wake up beside the most beautiful person in the world…not your youngest child who crawled in the bed…but your spouse. You’re going to really feel blessed to be next to that beautiful person especially when you make it to the mirror in the mornings.

You’re going to regret trying to run away from your mom and dad so quickly. You’re going to want to pick up the phone and call them as much as possible. You’re going to remember their lectures, words of “wisdom”, and caution and know that they were actually right.  If God blesses you with a child you’re going to name the child after your parents because of the influence that had on your life. However, if home was a nightmare filled with abuse then you’re going to prove mom and dad wrong. You’re going to make a difference and with God’s help you will show them what you can do even when they told you it couldn’t be done.

You will eventually make money but still, somehow, be broke for a while. It will be tough at first (remember the credit cards and loans?) but God will provide and mom and dad will help you out. I promise. If you don’t go to college then no worries because no matter what anyone says it’s ok for you not to go to college because, get this, college is not for everyone. You will show them that you can still provide and work hard and do what God wants you to do. The church will step in and provide for you in times when you could not provide for yourself. You will have to fight the evils of consumerism and you will eventually give much of your income to the church. People will think of you as crazy, stupid and a little off kilter but you will consider that suffering for the kingdom’s sake and little bit like emptying yourself which is what Jesus did for you. You will have ups and downs financially and there will be days you will have to eat beans and rice and rice and beans but you will make it because all you need is a roof over your head and food on the table.

You will learn to live with your body. It’s ok that your body is not in pristine shape or that it’s shape looks like a hamburger rather than an hour glass. It’s ok. God just wants you to be healthy. You will eventually enjoy eating things like salads, grapefruits, tree bark and you will especially enjoy drinking lots and lots of water. Balding only gets worse and so do the wrinkles and your physical deterioration will be a daily reminder thanks to your kids and sometimes teenagers who decide to take a stab. Laugh at this and consider it a way God humbles you. Look at your body as a gift from God and each day is another opportunity that someone else did not get.

You will eventually grow to love and adore the church. Yes there are hypocrites in church but your experience in life will show you that there are hypocrites everywhere inside and outside the church. The church never claimed to be perfect anyways besides there are so many people in the church who have changed their lives drastically because of the work of the church through Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. The church will need you to teach a class, lead a song, direct a program, visit the sick or teach a bible class. You will have a renewed commitment to the church and it will drive you and you will soon find out that it is not you that is driving you but it is the Spirit of God inside of you. You’re going to find out that the church is filled with plenty of people as messed-up as you! That will put a smile on your face and the face of thousands of angels watching.

You’re going to think about the regrets from time-to-time and they will enter your thoughts at weird moments. The regrets will be like a bruise that won’t go away or rainstorm that will not depart. You may have to call people to apologize for what you did and you may have to tell them you have changed. You may have to earn someone’s trust back because of what you did but it’s going to be worth it. You’re going to show God and others that you are a radical disciple who has radically changed. “I’m not that way anymore” will come out of your mouth as effortless as air discharged from your lungs and you will say it with a smile. Like Paul, your past will not break you rather it will shape you. Your story will become a testimony for so many people to hear.

Then there is God. He always was and always is and always will be. You’re going to find him because you’re going to long for him. Like a fire in the midst of a blizzard you will long for his warmth and light. He will show up in your life not as a boxed-in, compartmentalized God but as the living, active God. He is going to lead you to places in life you never thought were possible but pretty soon you will realize that God is in the making-the-impossible-possible business. You are going to realize that truly Jesus came so, like John told you, “we may have life, and life to the fullest” (John 10:10). You will long for something John and Isaiah described as the New Heavens and New Earth. You will feel God’s presence in your life with the utmost assurance that nothing can separate you from the love of God which is in Christ (Rom. 8:31-39). You will feel God in your bones and in your core and it will be most satisfying. There will still be valleys where the questions of theodicy (making God just) come back but you will know, deep down in your core, that eventually God will reign over all and all will be made right.

This is my graduation speech and it is filled with paradoxes, difficulties, some contradictions and uncertainties. But such is life right? Life is never a linear process but often we find it as a cyclical pattern that repeats itself but rests on the grace of God. So may you find the friends you need. May you discover the spouse who is yours or may you rest in the state you are in. May you love every minute your family is alive. May you live fiscally sound so you can give until it hurts. May you rejoice in the body God gave you but may you treat it well. May you love the church and realize it truly is, like the preacher said, a hospital for the sick. May you use your regrets to empower and inform your future. And may you run to God, wrap your arms around him and never, ever let go.

So, Dr. Seuss was right…a little…“be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray or Mordecai Ale Van Allen O’Shea, you’re off to Great Places! Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting. So…get on your way!”


Why do so many men not have friends?

I think we are at an impasse in churches which almost could be described as epidemic. Years ago David Murrow wrote a helpful book called Why Men Hate Going to Church offering some reasons why men really do not plug in. I like what he did and the direction he took but I also think that, at least in Western culture, the issue might go beyond the church. Vicki Zakrzewski wrote an article called “Debunking the Myths About Boys and Emotions” which points to the problem that I speak about. She highlighted the reasearch of Niobe Way and made some powerful conclusions (forgive me for the long quote):

During her 20 years of interviews with hundreds of ethnically, racially, and economically diverse American teen boys, Way heard over and over from them that without these friendships, they would go “wacko.” In other words, the boys understood the connection between their close friendships and their own mental health.

Yet, as boys entered late adolescence, Way found that they began to experience less trust and a fear of betrayal in their male peers. They also began to internalize society’s masculine norms by equating close friendships with being gay, a girl, or immature. As a result, the boys were less willing to have a close male friend even though they all told her they wanted one. Way also noted the boys’ levels of loneliness and depression began to increase during this time.

In her analysis, Way points out that social disconnectedness is prevalent throughout American society. She cites research that found the percentage of adults who have no close friends increased from 36 percent in 1985 to 53 percent in 2004 and argues that it is our culture that distorts both boys’ and girls’ natural capacity for empathy and emotionally intimate friendships. “This is not a boy crisis,” writes Way, “but a human crisis of connection”–and one that negatively impacts our families, our schools, our communities, and our political and economic institutions. (Emphasis mine)

Since it impacts every arena of culture that means the “crisis of connection” involves the church community. Take a step back and look at your church and I imagine the ladies of your church have a deep connection to each other that probably can be seen tangibly with retreats, classes, luncheons and tea gatherings. Murrow is spot on:

Truth is, a lot faithful, churchgoing men are not all that excited come Sunday morning. Quite a few attend out of habit, surviving on the memories of victories won years ago. Others attend services simply to keep their wives happy. Most guys do nothing midweek to grow in faith. Few churches are able to sustain a viable men’s ministry. (Source)
I would even challenge you to look at your corporate gatherings and friendships you make at work. Sure you might enter a Fantasy League with the guys and you might even go after work for a few drinks but when it comes to being connected emotionally to others it, to use Southern colloquial language, “just ain’t happenin’.” In churches I have seen that the closest men get to each other is doing some lawn work in the name of Jesus or building a ramp (all good things). We can do manly labor together but talk about emotions and we are out.
So what’s the deal? Some people think we should return churches to be more manly places (think Mark Driscoll meets William Wallace…or Mark Driscoll as William Wallace ;)) so that we can win back the men. That would be disturbing and missing the point. I think it needs to start on the grass roots levels where we learn how to have friendships with men that is God honoring and emotional. I have struggled at having manly friendships that hold me accountable and connect to me on a level that honors and glorifies God.
So I don’t know what to do other than model this type of behavior myself. Make friends with men, hang out, have coffee, share life and become vulnerable. The pendulum is swinging a bit as the Millenials are way more relational than others but it needs to permeate all age groups.